Hey all I thought I would update a little......I am doin a little better then i have been......there are still something that I am struggling with in my life but not only in my life with with me walk with christ and some other things......There is a smart man that told me that he has been seeing me slip away from God and slipping away from doing somethings for the church....When he told me that i kinda was like what no but then I got to thinking WOW!!!! I have been and I really do not know why and that scares me!!!! I thought I have been at the same spot that i have been for a long time but as I read Heather's post it got me thinking even more! I am going to go ahead and lay some cards out here on the table and see if anyone can help me! Last night at church Bryan talked about relationships! WOW!! Bryan u got me thinking a lot about my relationships with all my friends....I owe u an apology, I have not always been there for you and I am sorry for that!!!!! With my mind being somewhere else and on other things, I lost my focus that you have always been there for me and I haven't and I need to be!!!!! I got to thinking about my other friendships and how they are and they are going great.....we have our moments but other wise we are good.... Some issues that i am having and or am dealing with rite now are as follows:(i am not going to go into detail so don't ask just pray!) 1. My walk with God! 2. Where I am spiritually! 3. My past with Heather and what she is dealing with! 4. My Friend Chris on what she is going through! 5. My Friend Jeff and the things he is going through! 6. Something that have happened in the past to me! 7. My sister Kristal and some of the things she is going through! 8. Some people in my church family that have been having lots of issues or have some problems! That pretty much sums it up! About two weeks ago Bryan talked about our hearts and where it is and what hurts it, makes if feel good, well mine at the bottom of the heart was colored in black because I have a black hole in my heart right now and I am working on getting that hole filled in but that is one of my big problems right now! This Saturday we or having a Leadership retreat at YCL called Iron-Sharpens-Iron and we are going to be talking about BROKENNESS! WOW just want some of us need to hear right now! Then on Sunday Bryan is going to be Preaching about BROKENNESS as well!! So hopefully I can get something out of these to lessons that will help with that black hole in my heart! PLZ PRAY LUV U ALL | 
